I Wish I Never Saw the Sunshine

Five years after its original publication, Silano's sculptural, accordion-folded meditation on queer loss, longing and melancholy returns to print.

American conceptual artist Pacifico Silano’s practice is rooted in excavating the printed ephemera of gay culture to create new images that comment on loss, longing and queer melancholy. In particular, Silano uses the gestures of framing, cropping and layering vintage gay erotica to comment on the HIV/AIDS crisis and its reverberations on queer lives, which included the loss of the artist's uncle at the height of the epidemic.

I Wish I Never Saw the Sunshine is Silano’s first artist’s book, and engages with an ambitious accordion-folded format that references Silano’s photo-based installations: two twenty-panel long sequences that can be read as both one continuous collage and a sequence of individual images. Included in the book is an interview with the artist by José Diaz, Chief Curator of The Andy Warhol Museum.

Since its original publication in 2021 the book has been nominated for multiple awards and featured in numerous exhibitions and catalogue surveys of the contemporary photobook, becoming a rare and highly sought-after title. This second printing is published by Loose Joints in June 2026.

• Format: Trimmed hardcover with continuous leporello binding
• 40 Pages
• Measures W20.00 × H25.00 cm / W7.87 × H9.84 in